Interesting Hashgocho

There is a lot of interesting hashgocho in this world. It's actually cool. It's like G-d has arranged for me to grow in a certain way and creates this obstacle course that is designed for me to grow in exactly that way, and keeps throwing the same things my way until I grow in the ways I need to grow from them.

I've made the move out of the 'wrong' dating arenas for me, like the shul I was at, and the internet. Now I have a few guys who have started pursuing me, in one way or another, which is good in itself, (for a while I was wondering if only non-Jews would try to date me), but shows me that I can't date someone just because they want to date me, as flattering as it may be. There is so much more.

I know I've learned this lesson before, but apparently it was needed again.

It can be very tempting to go for a guy who is not for us, because he is charming, or deeply interested, but that is not ultimately what is going to make us happy, if other important parts are not in place. It's hard not to call them back, or show special warmth and interest back to someone who is 'into' you, especially when it is flattering.

But there is amazing hashgocho, because in those times when I know I should end something, but don't want to, and want to hold on, Hashem finds a way to end it. And sometimes just when I least expect it.

It's a gift to be looked after.

Thank You Hashem.